Am I really sorry for that...???
i dont know yet. It has been more than three months. but sometimes, i really cant, cant accept it. i believe myself, so did i make any mistake while believing others, keeping trust on others?
after a long time.. i made friendz. it was very good to spend a day with them. we enjoyed each & every moment. i had a crush on a girl, she was in my group also, even she was one of my best friend. but later on i got that she is already carrying out with someone, so i left all my feelings off there only...
we saw the up & downs of everyone's life. we enjoyed it & even we all suffered it also.. Sometime i felt like, is there anything to me greater than this..?? greater than this time? greater than this fun? answer was absolutely "No.., "Not at all.."..
later on, automatically groupism got started.. it was expected..and i got left alone somehow.. dnt know what was the reason... may b i wasnt interested in such groupism or may b i was unable to make someone to myside, or may be they didnt think about me for groupism criteria...
i dont kno what they think about me.. & it lead to raise of clashes, some word fights.. n i was the victim of all.. every topic of clashes started with me and ended up with me alone.
reason?
dnt know anymore.. but it was sure, according to them, i did wrong things.
I cant explain how that made me feel.. It hollowed me out inside...
it is not like, whole life i was alone, i lived without frinedz.. but i was famous in my group.. i was favourite in my group. i know how to handle a group, how to mix up with group.. but while thinking about this mentality, all knowledge of mine was useless... i cudnt make out anythings from that.. what was the reason for that...?
but then also, i used to behave like how i am, giving compliment to someone, teasing, joking around like that... but my compliment turned out into comments (bad), my friendly teasing turned into anxity of others... i dnt understood one thing, how it happened...?
may be my emotional attachment drew me crazy...!
while sleeping on my bed,
one night got a thing in my mind, groupism made them to think like that? or i was wrong at that time..
i tried to be as i was, but may be their internal contacts, their hidden talk, or may be something else... reason might be anything.. it turned me off into a bad image...
but whatsoever it was..but i really feel that, at this time also.. i dnt have any issues with them... dnt have hard feelings for them.. but somewhere in mind.. it hurts.. that people whom i made the best friendz of my life..
they made me a target..!
and it hurts sometimes...!! really hurts..!!!
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1 comment:
gr8 story. bt cudnt undrstnd d prob yt..!
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